Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Perfect Day Meme

From the New Frontiers.

Ok. My Perfect day.
1st off I would only need about 4 hours sleep. So I could wake up early. I would wake from a nice dream.

The morning would be nice and crisp as I walked the dog and my coffee would be perfect.
I would get back and ~Z and ~L would still be asleep so I would get in a little gaming before ~Z got up and came in to give me a hug.

We would let ~L sleep in as I changed ~Z's but then got a BB show on for her. I would start Breakfast for Myself, ~L and ~Z. the Smell would wake up ~L and I would give her her coffee.

Then we would all have breakfast then head up in the mountains for a walk (or play of some kind). There would not be to much sun. We would make it back down town for a late lunch. A storm would come in. but just light rain to start. give us time to walk the mall. Check out how ~L's art was moving. I would buy some game stuff and candy

We would make it home before the Storm really broke. There would be thunder and lighting and a little flooding. This would last for a little while and there would be football on TV. my team would be winning. ~Z would play and watch the game with me and ~L would do art.

After the storm died down and the game was over we would go out to eat. Maybe with some Friends. after that we might get in an hour of card games or something. then we would but ~Z down and I would do some video games while ~L did art or we could both watch a movie (maybe with our friends) as the storm picks up again.

Then we would go to bead and read a little (maybe other things...) as we hear the rain coming down above us. (on a sky light)

this is just one perfect day. There is one or two with snow. more with rain and even a few with sun and the sea. also Kung-fu, more reading and and RPG planning would be in there. kayak or music lesson as well.


Friday, October 19, 2007

Not so much awake

Yes playing Halo and other games. But I had Halo dreams again last night. After staying up to late playing the game. This dream was more about the Flood. It might have given me a story idea.

I have also down loaded a game called Blazing Angels. A WWII air combat game. Love it. I might need to get the whole game.

~L and I had a nice hike last weekend. Would love some more walks.
Some friends watched ~Z. it was nice to get out. After the hike we had a nice dinner with the friends.

We also had my parents in last week. It was vary nice to see them. But I think we need to get ~Z out of the habit of asking for presents. She is 2 and everything she sees she wants. And She has no tact. It is not like her grand parents are not going to spool her. She just should not ask for it. Just need to make sure she grows out of it.

~Z is a love. She is looking forward to Halloween. So am I. She will have so much fun.

Well that is it for now. It is Fall. Vary Fall. Love it.

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

To much HALO

so the last 2 nights I have had HALO dreams. I dont remenber what the one was tonights ago. but last nights dream picked up right were I left off playing.

Kind of freeked me out having to fight thought the Flood. and when I awoke from the dream I swore I would give myself a day off from it. But now that I am half way though the day. -- I am looking forward to playing again. :)

I am so close to fininshing the game. I need to play.

I am playing on normal right now. (with scoring turned off. Somthing I did not find out about till 1/2 thought the game.) When I am done I will move on to hard. See if I can do that with no help. Make sure I have scoring on for that. and I will start playing with other.

I think that is what I really like most about the 360. playing with others.


To much HALO

Monday, October 1, 2007


I use the word just about every day. I don't even think about it. "I hate getting up in the morning." "I hate the sound of the train at night." I hate this and I hate that. The problem is I never really thought about the word. I have always used it in place of "I don't like." But I came to a stunning reveltion about the word today when I heard it come out of my 2 year olds moth. 1 I realized I say it way to much. and 2 I realized it meaning. Disliking something happens when you have experiences with something and it dose not work for you or you have found it wanting in some way.

Hate though is born of fear and ignorance. Dislike you can face and change your mind about. But not hate. You hate because you fear. Hate is irrational. Hate is stupid. You may try to rationalise your hate. But in the end it is something that lives inside of you.

I don't want my child learning hate. I do what her to learn to judge things and decide that some things are bad. Bad for her and the world. but that is not hate. there is no feeling to that, that cant be justified and or changed.

I fear that I am not making myself clear. But all I can tell you is that when I heard "I hate that" come out of her moth. I felt like the worst dad ever. I guess really need to watch what I am teaching my little girl.


Monday, September 17, 2007

Hello world

Got it.

So I got my 360 finely.

And yes it is vary fun.

But more about that in a second.

Some updates.

Live is going well I think. Job vary good. Have my own office witch is nice but I do feel vary alone sometimes. That is good and bad I guess. I have been given an opportunity here to really build (with one other person) our own department. I think that will happen. The only thing that I don't like is that right now I am doing more documentation than anything else. I had about 3 weeks of being able to do what ever I thought was needed. not this week.

One of the things I love about being here is that I can bike or walk to work and home. It is also right by the creek and ~Z and ~L can come up for lunch sometimes. Also there are lots of bunny's around. ~Z loves that.

I counted 10 bunny's on my walk home the other day.

I still need to start going to class more. or at all. I went once about 3 weeks ago. But then I started doing some contract work and it always seemed that they wanted stuff on nights that I had class. I think the job is done now. but I have though that before and it keeps coming back. I keep getting payed for it though. So that is good. Will help paying off parents for the move, put some $$ back to catch up on things. That makes me happy. (and it did help me get the 360)

On the up side we have been hiking/Walking allot. ~Z is just amazing on them. She sees things (like dear and other animals) before we do. It is vary fun to go on hikes with her. I just wish she would not so easily get distracted by sticks and rocks. Also it seems we really need to be on the look out when we are out. ~Z and ~L saw a mountain lion the other day and there have been lots of sightings of mountain lions and bears down near or in town.

~Z BTW is going nuts. She is always moving, Learning and playing. As close as she gets to staying still is when she is watching Disney videos. We are now going though them all. (Thank goodness we have video games and pitcher in pitcher.

She also sets with me while I play video games sometimes. she will get a old controller from the xbox and set next me telling me she is helping. She hits the buttons and watches the TV. She loves Frogger and Sonic the Hedge Hog (I can down load old 80's and 90's games.) But I kind of worry a little when she is "playing" Gears of War with me. Chainsaws cutting though aliens and all. Still she seems happy.

~L's art is looking vary good. It always dose. but it looks better and better all the time and she is happy doing it. She is going to start taking violin lessons this week and I am going to do guitar sometime. ~Z is taking music lessons. Ask her what she likes best. "the shakers" she says holding out her arms to her side and shaking!

RPG. going well.

Ok. the 360. I do love it. Right out of the box though the 1st one I got gave the the "Red Ring Of Death" I took it right back and got a new one. No one gave me any problems about that. People know it happens. I got a ping pong game that came with it. have not played it yet. I have been playing Gears of War. I did not really think I was going to like GOW much besides playing with my friends. but I am really getting into it.

As for the rest of the system. I love it that it connects me to people on the IM chat as well as other people on the xbox. It really makes me feel like I am part of the community. I also like the downloads. the classic video games and Demos are fun. I would also like to connect it to the computer. but have not gotten that to work yet. Really want to do XNA.

As for games I want. guitar heroes I really need BioShock! . and HALO 3 is coming. (I am almost shaking!)

Well that is it for now.

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Chomping at the bit.

So ready to start the new job. I am trying not to be a short timer where I am. But I really am looking forward to my new job. Did the drug test today. I have no worry there. Now I just need it is just time....

I am also looking forward to getting out stuff from Seattle this weekend. It is going to be a long drive, but worth it. It will be over. Also I will be seeing some friends up there. I am looking forward to that to.

I think one of the things I am looking forward to most is getting back my music. Need my music bad. One thing I hate about where I am is that I keep finding good places to get streaming music and then they block it here. I hate that. HATE it. I also can’t get to my Gmail. Not a good way to keep web developers. Well this one will not be here much longer.

On other news. I have started jogging in the morning with the dog. The dog is not at all happy about this. Needs to be done though.

I way too much and I need to get in a little shape the kung-fu. Witch I start again soon. Need to go back. and get in shape for outdoor.

O the pain.

Kind of nice to do though, even if I have to almost drag the dog.

Well that is it for now.


Monday, August 13, 2007

Another update.

Well it looks (again) like I have a new job. Just need to pee in a cup. I will be sad to leave this company. Really good people in it. But I think I will look forward to the new one. It is a company in Boulder and I will be moving a classic asp(js) app into .net(c#). It looks like there well be 2 other people on the team. One is a DB person that is already there. The other they are hiring. I am not sure where I will fall in the system. But I think there is a good chance I will be the team lead.

The pay at the job is what I am making now. But without the over head of 1200 a year of bus passes. Also there is insurance and vacation with this job. Vary nice. And I can bike to work.

In theory I start in two weeks. But I will talk to my boss tomorrow here. It might be that he will let me to sooner than 2 weeks. If so. I will start as soon as I can.

On other news. I am going back to get our stuff from Seattle this coming weekend. So ready to go. After that. Get an x-box 360. I hope. Hate to say that, because you know that something will come up to keep me from getting it. Still I am going to really try to be positive. I really want one before Halo 3 comes out. I know I would be happy with one after that. But I think I will feel really let down if I don’t get one before. Stupid. Yes. But….

~Z is doing really well. Need to get more pics up. I don’t have time to tell you all the cool stuff she is doing. But she has started telling us she loves us without us saying it 1st. she has also decided that our bead is way better than hers. ~L is doing well as well. Hates the heat but then so do it. She is going to take a class next month. YAY

It is hot here again. In the high 90’s. but the clouds keep coming over in the afternoon. So that helps. Still wish it was cooler.

Well that is it for now.


Friday, July 27, 2007

Life now

Well things seem to be going good. I do like my job. Still upset about the travel. But it is all good.

It has turned off cool again. Well 80s right now. Was up to almost 100 this last week. So way to hot.

I have gotten done with the last Harry Potter book. It was very good. I don’t know if I would say it was supper. But it was good. And a good ending to the story. There are thing that I would like to know about what happened after the end. But I am guess did better than most stories.

So now I am going to read something else. I wish I had a printer. I have a friend that has send me something she did. But the only time I can read it is in front of the computer. And that sucks. I am not a big fan reading stuff off the computer.

I guess this is not going to be a big entry. I just though I would say hi to everyone. My gaming is going well. Well it is going fun anyway. In D&D my Ranger got an arrow in the eye. Then on the week I could not play instead of getting my eye fixed the party took off across the country. The Vampire game is going well. I look forward to running again. It will be so nice. Well nice for me.

Still have not got our stuff for Seattle yet.

But it does seem. Life is good.


Tuesday, July 10, 2007

So a quick update.

Things seem to be going ok sense we have been back.

Job is good. A little bit of a pine because insurance has not come though like the contract company told me it would and I did not get a bus pass. But I like the person I am working for and it pays well. Still you never know what might come up.

Living is good to. Hot though most of the time here. Senses we have moved in we have spend almost $600 on AC units for the place. Got 2 of them and on the 90+ days they just hold there own. Hate to see what the bill is going to be for the electricity. Not to mention there is $600 gone we could have used for other things.

Class. Love it. When I get to it. But I have been going more then when I was in Seattle. Still cost $$. Hate to go when I can’t pay. So will start going again next week.

Friends. Seeing lots of them and gaming. Playing D&D (Second game and my CH got an arrow in the eye) and running Vampire. (let’s just see what happens to the CH of the D&D games eye!)

Car. Runs good now. But I just had to drop in $820 on it. Hate that.

Hate it hate it hate it. That makes 1420 on stuff we need but … dame it. We were going to get a computer with that $$, and get our stuff from Seattle and…. Well. Maybe something else.

Just pisses me off.

It also makes us live like we have no $$. I hate that. We should not have this problem with as much as I make. But every time it looks like we might have something left over. Bam! I am trying not to be negative. But still….

We did get a nice mattress though. We both sleep so well on it.

For the most part all is good. I am still doing some work with Saltmine. Got paid for the gadgets I did.

Have friends.


Thursday, June 14, 2007

It has been a long time, or so it seems.
Well we made it back to Boulder. We left most of our stuff back in Kirkland though. Just could not aford the truck at the time. So at the end of this month I am going back and getting it all. IT is going to be a long trip. but I hope to find someone to go witht me. help with the trip back.

We are happy to be back. I have 2 games in the works and have a good job. The job is in denver and the bos likes VB. still it is good. and I can keep my eyes open for somthing in Boulder. But I am in no ruch. and this might work out well for me. Even with the drive.

I am also still doing some other work for saltmine as well, and soem for a difrent company. I hope soon though to get my own thing going. have some idea.

Well in short. We are back and we are happy
thewildword ~d

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

It is gone. Or at least going.

My home lab top is on its last leg. Maybe even past its last leg. For a while now it has been having problems but last week I took a CD out of it and it stopped working. It seems not to be able to find the hard drive now.

Oooo the pain. I can get it to work some. But have to tilt it at an angel to the left. It will boot up that way and run for about 15 minutes before it just locks up. Just about enough time for me to check email.

We are going to get a new computer. But we might wait till we get back to Boulder. Not sure we want to buy a new piece of hardware then move it half way across the U.S.

I don’t know if I can make it that long without a computer though. It is not the games or the web that I really need I find. It is developing. I need to Develop!

I am such a nerd.


Monday, May 14, 2007

Moving back to Boulder.

Thought I would update this really fast.

Fast is the key word. Things have been moving fast. Sense I have last blogged (one of the reasons I have not put anything on the new blog at all!). ~L and I have decided to move back to Boulder. We have been talking about it for awhile now and were going to stay here till then end of summer, but something’s came up, so I put my resume out just so see what hits I would get. And BAB. Lots of hits.

So we are off. Should be in on the 2nd on June.

I am going back this coming weekend to interview for a job. I have 3 interviews lined up. 2 of the 3 sound like nice places and I am sure I would enjoy working at ether. But the 3rd is the place I think I would like the most.


It is a company that builds a plug-in that lets you see were people are at on the web “near you”. They have come up with a way of creating web spheres. Groupings of web pages that are related in some way. You can also see were you friends are and the like. Everyone that I have gotten to sign up loves it. All think it could be the next big thing. Really makes you feel not so alone on the web. I have already made some new friends. (at lets I hope they are friends.. I was chatting with one person that was on there and found out he was the CEO part of the way though. J)

I have also discovered new sited though it. I see were people go and or group. When I see lots of people on a site, I just have to go check it out.

Well besides interviews for next weekend I need to find a place to live as well. And some time in there to say hi to some of my friends.

I am so looking forward to seeing them all. I have already been asked to play in a D&D game and run a Vampire game.

~L and I are also looking forward to letting ~Z play in the creek. And I can get back to Kung-fu more.

How fun.

Well now back to seeing if I can fix a 175px content box into 160px div.

I will try to keep everyone one updated.

~thewildword. ~d

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

new Blog

so I have Started a new blog.
it is going to be my coding blog. I was going to put some thought I have on coding up here.

but this site is more about me complaining about things.

so new site.



Tuesday, April 24, 2007

And we are going backwards. No Shock.

So we are now thinking of moving to West Seattle. We are going to go over this weekend and look at the area. But we really want to move. Kirkland is ok, but boring and expense. And I have little dought that our rent will go up. And for what we are getting. That just is not right. In West Seattle we can get more for less and the commute would not be so bad. I think I would like that. We also may do Magnolia. I might even like Magnolia more. It is to the north instead of the south. And north would be closer to Kung-fu. Either way. We need to move. I am sure if we stay where we are. By the end of summer. We will be moving back to Boulder. And I do love Boulder. But I would like to give it at least one more year here.

And maybe, just maybe if we can get a place that cost a little less. We can save some $$. Maybe.

On the down side. 25 days (would be 24 today) till xbox is shot!

I know it would be. Just knew it. I should not be depressed about this. But I am. I am a lot. And I do not think it is really the xbox (but I would love to have one) it is the fact that I have to make choices like this. I don’t get how it is that I make as much as I do and can’t just go get the xbox when I want and still have $$ to move. I don’t get it. We don’t waste that much $$. Is it were we live? Maybe. Still. It is depressing. so F#$King depressing!

Here lest depress myself some more.
So it was 25 days.
Lest add at least 2 months because of moving.
So 85 days.
Any # of things that are needed come up.

And that is how it is going to go.
No way around it.
But on the up side. We will have a nice place to live. And that means a lot. A whole lot. Maybe being in a new place will pirk me up. :(

Monday, April 23, 2007

Ok. 360 here I come. I hope.

So Saturday night I was very close to getting a 360. I was seconds away from it. ~L told me to get it and I really wanted to. But the trough is I have a hard time spending that kind of $$. I mean I could just get the core set. But that has no hard drive and no game. 2 things I really need. So getting the core set $300 would be nice. But not what I really want.

What I want is the Core set with a hard drive, a game and a few other things. I think by the time it is all said and done it will be about $500. That is lots of $$. So I did not get it Saturday. Made me a little said but I put back ½ of what I need for it. I was going to just get it on the next pay check but ~L pointed out that would be the rent paycheck. So I guess it will not be 2 weeks but 4. That kind of drives me nuts but ok.

What drives me nuts about it is I am sure by 4 weeks we are going to find lots of things we will need to put the $$ towards. After all, our lease is coming up. Our rent could go up. We need to register the car next month. And god knows what else could happen.

I hate that feeling. Hate it.
But I am sure it will all work out. I hope.
So 25 days till x-box 360. Please only 25 days.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

So close to getting there.

At the start of this week I had a good Monday. Something happened at work to make me vary happy. It was something that was offered me that would have gotten me to a place were we could get ahead. Get a new computer, get an x-box 360. Get some $ in the bank. Get things I wanted. Be able to go to more kung-fu things. Let ~L and ~Z do more stuff. Do more stuff with them. For 2 days I was on top of the world. My stress had gone down. But yesterday I was told that it was a mistake. things had happened and people were miss informed. Offered me stuff they were not suppose to. So it was taken away. Away. I know the parson that offered it to me was new and new people make mistakes. I can't hold people for making mistakes. I know I have made enough myself.

Still. I cant help but feel bad. Like hope was taken from me somehow. I cant help but feel disappointed and a little depressed.

But it will be ok.

thewildword ~d. :(

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Home Sick.

So we have been here almost a year. I for the most part I think it has been good. We have seen lots of places and done lots of things. Been down to central Oregon, up to Canada and done lots of other things. We have had a good time. Some what. Job is good, been a ride sometimes, but good. I have learned a hole lot and my job skills have really increased. And so has my asking price for work.

Still. I have not been able to get to Kung-fu. It is on the other side of the lake and that might as well be on the other side of the world to get there dearing the week. So that just sucks. And no matter what we do, we just cant seem to make friends. I remember growing up, it always seemed that my parents would have some friends over once a week or we would go somewhere and play cards, go bowling, even just watch ball together. Living in Boulder I had a social life on and off. Gaming and the like. It was hit and miss sometimes. but it happened. Way more than here. There was just odd people that we got along with.

There is no odd here. We miss the odd. Miss the Food, Miss the Mall. Miss it to the point that I have kind of been looking at Jobs and homes there. It is so much cheaper. I could make what I am making now and the cost of living would be less by a 4th I think. And we would be around people that I know would love to watch ~Z, and we could get a yard for ~Z and the Dog. they would love that. And I would feel like I am home.

For the most part we are just not having fun here. We have little moments of fun. I enjoy class when I get there. ~S and ~M (kung-fu people) I love hanging out when then when we can. but they live across the world as well and have the school to run. UU is nice, but it is not really fun. There are things I enjoy. but not really fun. the most fun, the happiest I have been in the last year is when we were in CA and we had one night up at my friends house in LA. that was the best. Dont get me wrong. ~Z and ~L and the best. they are my loves and home. and ~Z stunts me every day. but LA was home. not the place, but the people.

What sucks is that I did not feel as relaxed there as I wish. as I should have. Part of me thinks that it is me here. people dont like me. So the hole time I was in LA I felt like I was holding my breath that my old friends would still like me. It is just there are people at the UU that seems like I should be able to make friends with. And people say "lest get togher." but no one ever dose. So I feel like I cant make friends. and I worry that people dont like me. Even around people that I know do.


It would feel a little like I was failing in my quest to live in the NW. There is a lot good up here, water, rain, ~L sister and step brother, Job, people of UU (but there is 2 UU in Boulder though.) It just seems that no one dose anything here. there are things to do. but people just seem to get home for the weekend and stay there. I dont get it.

I did have a good time last Friday after work. I stayed there with some co-workers and played Rise of Nations. It was fun, and I could do more things like that, more Kung-fu, RPG, and other stuff, but it would be with out ~L and ~Z. I dont mind doing that sometimes. but I dont want to do it all the time. I will not give up my family for such things. I want to do fun things with my family and others. That seems hard to do. and ~L has nothing like that. Nothing that is hers. And she needs that. I need her to have that. That is how you get happy.

It just hurts being here sometimes.

Summers here are stunning, and I do love my job. most of the time.

I am guessing we are just home sick. But I sure miss my friends.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Canada and Easter.

Well we had our Easter, went to Canada to see ~L sister, her husband and there child ~S. it was a good trip. Nice to see them. And ~Z and ~S hit it off. They had a good time playing. We hope to get them together more. It would be a shame not to. They do live so close.

Still. I found Canada odd. I can’t see any deferent’s between our earth and there’s. It felt odd though. The sighs being in Kilometers, even though I knew they would be, made me feel out of my element right away. And god only knows how much anything costs or ways. I can convert Kilometers to miles ruffle but Money to money. Pounds to whatever they use… lost! I felt more at home in England.

We got on the highway there and we were suppose to go 2 miles to our exit. But the sigh said 5 till the next. But in 2 miles there is was. I thought there sigh was wrong. But then I realized it was not wrong. Just in Kilometers. So kind of wrong.
And I thought the hole Putting “Ahaa” at the end of each question was something that was done for TV, but know they do it. I know it is bad. But I could not help but think. “O my god, people really do that?” Everyone was nice though. And I did have a good time. I hope ~L sister and her family come down soon.

I was glad to get back on this side of the border though. The drive was stunning and we found what looks like a great place to hike. We took the road along the cost back. Everything was so green. I would love to take the drive sometime when it was not raining. I do love rain. But I would love to see it all in the sun.

It really helped. I was kind of set off the hole day. And I know why. ~L sister and her family always seem to have not $$ but yet they have lots of stuff. Flat screen TV, 3 computers, Nice Monitors and lots of DVDs that they have bought. And I know we make more than them.

But yet I can’t give any of that stuff to my family or myself. I just don’t know what I am doing wrong. I am guessing nothing. I know we don’t live off credit or family and they do. Still…. I don’t know.. Still. I was set off by it.
I need something to change. I need to get ahead. Somehow…
Well ~Z is happy.

More later.


Sunday, April 1, 2007


That is want is running through me right now.

I have had a good last few days. Starting Wednesday by boss was out. I got a lot done. Not that I don’t when he is there. He is a grate boss and really knows his stuff. He is also dedicating lots of time in me. Still I kind of have some down time right now. And I fell better about using it to learn stuff when he is not there. Odd I know. But part of me always fells like I am goofing off when I am not working on a project.

Well the stuff I did that day and the next at work, Friday from home and the last two days just for fun. I am sure they will be pleased with. Server controls I am really getting the hang of. I can’t wait for my review!

Beside’s that I did get my first .Net page up that is my own that I did. I redid the CSC Seattle site. Here it is take a look. I am happy with it. The down side is that the server only allows you to run a .Net site from the root dir. So I have to have it go though an Iframe. Kind of a pain. And I can’t get the stupid white border to go away. I have another CSC site to work on. For Salt Lake.

Today at the UU I was invited to start going to the planning committee for sermons. I think I will enjoy that. I might even give a sermon one day… I sure do give my thought enough when we get to say what we think about the sermon that day. I guess that is why they want me up there.

That makes me happy.

Still all this good stuff and I am not happy right now. There is nothing I can put my fingers on. But I fell somewhat lost. ~L and I are talking about moving again. Somewhere link Bend OR. I guess it is more like Boulder. Less rain. I am not happy about that. But ~L is having a hard time with all the clouds. I am going to miss the rain. I love the rain. But I can admit that I do miss the Sun as well. It fells good to be in the sun some times. I see the sun way to much from inside an office…
I miss kung-fu to. But I have no time for that here. I keep getting headaches and bloody noses here. Well I have for the last 2 weeks. I not to worried about it. But it is a pain.

~L and I have talked about going back to Boulder. Part of me really would like that. More kung-fu, people we know and I am sure I could get a job there. But going back would fill odd. I think I would rather move to Bend. I think there is a chance there will be more storms there. I just don’t fell like I have a home right now. I fell like I am just starting to get settled here and we are thinking about moving. I would love move to a house. Some place with a yard for ~Z and the pets. But I am not sure that I am ready to give up on WA yet. It seems like we are just getting started here.

I also still want a 360. I just don’t see how I am going to get one though. I don’t know if one will make me happy. But I know not having one is not helping with how I fell. Stupid hu?

Well it is for the most part going ok. ~Z is stunning. Growing. ~L’s art is just stunning as well. And Well work.. work is going so well.
Thewildword ~d

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

The most usfull day of work in…. alog time.

Well. I have been learning to do servercontrols at work. It is a .net thing. I love them.

Today there was almost no one else in the office. I really got some good stuff done. I have made a mose over image control and now am I am making a pop in contol.
Sure there is lots of them out there. But they are all in js. And there is some problems to walking the DOM and setting it up that way.

The way I am doing it is by building the Iframe and placing it on the page using a controol. I have a div around that, that is as wide as the page and I am going to put one more div right around the iframe for aborder and x close control. While you are in the iframe you can do whatever processing you need and then set a funcion on close so that you can update the calling page as needed.
And by putting one little custome tag on the page.
I like making my own tags.

And I thought user controls were cool. Ha.

I have even leared how to cast controls.

All that and Sun for 2 days in a row.

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Hard time to Blog.

It has been hard finding time for this.
I do like doing it. But o my god. Where has my time gone? Anyone? Anyone?
So a quick update.
~Z is doing well. She had her 2 year check up and the Docs are amazed at how well she is doing. They said that is many ways she is advanced as a 3 year old. She knows all her colors and can count to 10 by herself and 20 with help. Need to start working on her letters.
We are going to take her up to Canada on Easter Sunday to see her cousin and Aunt (~L sister) and uncle. It will be fun. Good for us all.
The UU is going will. I help out last Saturday after noon on the chapel. Ran my head into an I-beam. But I am ok. Found out they are going to but a preschool in there once it is done. ~L and I like that idea for ~Z.
I rebuilt my computer. Needed to. Had too much junk on it. More so now that it is ~Z and I only computer. We are going to get a new one at some point. Was going to get one next paycheck but now we are going to get a bed frame for ~Z. So who knows when? There are lots of thing on our list. Seems to be getting more and more. O well.
But on the good computer side. My .Net skills are really taking off. I am now building server controls. User controls were fun. But server controls kick but! I need to finish off the Seattle and Salt Lake City sites in the next couple days though. So I might take a brake from the controls thing for a day or two. The sites are looking good. I just need to finish them up and get them up for review.
On a down side. Have had headache for the last 7 days. Comes and goes how bad it is. But sometimes it just nocks me out.
Well that is it for now.

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Vacations… and 2.

Ok I know I have been away for a while for a long time but I have been on vacation. At the start of it on the 4th ~Z turned two. She picks up every word that that anyone says. So We have to watch what we are saying.

Well anyway like I said we were on vacation. We went to San Diego to see my brother ~S and Mom and Dad. We got left late Sunday. ~Z took the plain ride in stride. Did not think anything about flying above the earth. And she was good.

Dad and ~S meet us at the airport Monday morning, got to the resort (saw a car speed up around us, slow down and bump a van. Before they both pulled over. Odd.) We slept late Monday, got up went to the beach. It was vary nice. Laura and I both have bad headaches. But the beach called kid’s beach (Seal Beach sense Seals took over.) the Seals and tide pools made the hole day worth it. We were still tired though so we did not do to much. We did meet ~S room mate and a couple of there friends for dinner. It was good. ~Z got to open her birthday presents. O she likes Birthdays.

The next day we drove through the mountains to get some good Pie and I discovered wasabi coated peanuts. LOVE THEM. Then we did the wild animal park. It was vary nice. But we got there late, so we only had 2 hours. Still ~Z loved it, and so did I.

The next day we got started late again. Went to sea world. Saw Shamoo. ~Z loved that too. But again we were there late and only had about 2 hours. And lots of places were closed.

Thursday ~S, ~L and I went down to the beach to walk around again. It was a nice relaxing time. Spent some good time with my Brother. Later that day ~S had to leave for a thing of his in Mexico. It was good to see hem though.

Friday, ~L and I rented a car for the day. Then the day got interesting. ~S gave the codes to his house so we could get in on Friday and use the computer so pay some Bills. That was all nice and things were going well when we hear a nock on the door saying “San Diego PD” It looks likes ~S neighbors knew that ~S and his roommate were gone so the called the police. Well we got it all worked out. But it was still a pain.

After that we did not do much the rest of the day. Got a new memory card for the camera. Later that night we ~L and I went to LA to see our (my) friends. Old friends of mine for Boulder ~KLTS. It was nice to see them. I miss them so much. It was on the best times I had there. It was all good time. But it was good to see my friends. They loved ~Z and ~S had lots of toys for ~Z.

Saturday spend the time with mom and dad had good food. Good time on the water. Played with ~Z in the water. That night ~L and I went out on a date. Again so nice. Sunday. Some of the best food we had. Good Mexican food. Cant get that in Seattle. But you can in old town San Diego. I highly recommend old town San Diego, wish I had more time to see it. But it was getting hot and everyone was getting tired. The flight home was ok. The 3 hour layover in San Fran was a little much though. Well pic are up.

I will talk more later. Still trying to get over the vacation. Get energy back…

Thewildword. ~d

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Book review, Seeker

Seeker by Jack McDevitt

I would like to say that this was a good book but it in reality it was not. I did make it all the way though but I had to look at the start of the next chapter a few times to keep interest because I did not know if the book was going to go anywhere.

Warning Spooler…. Kind of.

The book has a good premise. One I like, looking for a lost colony of human settlers that have been gone for 6000 years. The main character tells the story in 1st person. Witch I really don’t think I like. Kind of feel like I am reading an over written diary. But the still the writing was good enough to keep me interested. Maybe kept me in the book as, like I said, seemed to go no where quite often. Finding the colony seemed take a lot more steps then needed and a few of the things they did to try to find it were dead ends. And were as doing something like this for real might have quite a few dead ends, one of two in a book is enough.

The teller talked and visited an alien race but never really explored them. There was a couple attempts on there lives, but you knew were they were coming, and who did it. The threat to there lives was just something to have there and not really needed. And you never really felt like they were in any danger. There was a lot of things thrown in to try to keep it from feeling like a strait point A to B story. But yet it still felt that way.

Also at the end of the book they found an interesting civilization. One that was on a world lock in to title lock so did not have night. They lived in a zone around dominator of the part that was the most habitable but they live in just early evening all the time. They did not have night or for that fact day. So they did not brake up time like most people did. They never saw the stars so they did not have a drive to get off the world.

I though that was interesting. It seems like humanity has a need to get to the stars, get off world. But would we have that if we never say the stars? The did know about stars, people that went to the dark, cold side of the plait for research and the like. But is was not in the mass mind. Would you even think about other races living around other stars. But this was never really explored. Or anything else that a race of humans would be like if they were separated form humanity for 6000 years.

Of course they only had legends of were they came from and religions that had sprung up. But no real knowledge of were they came from. At 1st I thought this unlikely that 6000 years would be enough to have the forget that they were once a colony of a race from a deferent world. But then I remember there have been more than one large civilizations that have been on the planet of the last 6000 years that have come, and gone with little more then a few coins and legions to let us know they were there. So maybe. Still non of the was really explored.

End then end. The book just ended. Tied up loss ends all in the last chapter that gave few paragraphs to the few outstanding questions. Nice, but it could have been done better. A lot better.

In the end. I say the righting and concept of the book saved it. But the story was not that deep or good.

Read it if you have time. Good for a plain or bus to hold you over.


Monday, February 26, 2007

Kids, The groups. Pods and Disks on the bus.

I have notest a sigh of the times. A new version of the have and have not’s on the bus in the morning. There are groups of teens that are that I think of as the Pods. They all have nice close that have been worked on the look like they are trash. Talk ‘shit’, curse every 3rd word and talk about how bad their lives are in Kirkland WA, all the fights they get into(despite the lack of limping and bruises.), how F@c# they get into each weekend. And most of the time they smoke. And they all have ‘iPods’.
The other group is quieter for the most part. Not so tight together and as there cloths, for the most part are clean, it is not so hard to tell that there stuff is mostly used. They don’t seem to mind though, they seem to take plusher in the fact they are creative in what they do with what they have. I don’t see most of them smoking and they all have ‘CD players’.
On the bus you can tell who are the have and the have not’s. iPods Vs Disks. I like the Disk kids a lot more. They just don’t seem to have the attitude. The iPod kids never even seem to lesion to their music. More interested in talking about how bad their lives in the same breath as talking about the new stuff they got this weekend. And how much the need a smoke. I can’t tell you how much these kids tick me off. Maybe I am just getting old. But my life was never as rough as they pretend there’s is. Sure I was in Hell as a teen. But the way this kids talk you feel like you should call social servers for them.
There is a 3rd group. The Goth kids. I don’t see them with the music much. But you can always guarantee they will have coffee on them. Everyone here has coffee on them. But for a Goth it is a requirement. Again most are smokers. But not as much as the Pods.
What I find odd. I don’t see any tech kids, computer nerd types on the bus. Maybe there parents drive them.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007


There has been a lot about the year 2012 and that the Mayans calendar ends in it. (sometime in October I think) For along time I have found this interesting. It always seemed odd to me that people that went though so much trouble to create such a grate calendar that went for so long after they did would end on a canteen date. Sure the calendar had to end some time. And it could be that is just what they decided to end for some reason. But they all end on that date. You would think if there was more then one of them and the end date did not matter. They would all end at deferent dates.

But lately I have learned that in 2012 is the same time that the earth passes though the galactic center. Moving from one side to the other. It seems that the earth dose this every so often. Lawrence Joseph says that he finds evidenced that every time this happens there has been big earth changes. That there is huge gravity waves that compress our sole system and brings the down fall of civilizations. And that is what the Mayans were talking about. Not the end of the world but the end of ‘this’ time and ‘this’ way. The Mayans were vary good at understanding the stars and our place in them.

Anyway. That said. I don’t now about the down fall of civilizations and all, even though I believe that there most likely has been advanced civilization of man on the this plaint before that have fallen I am not sure if this will be the fall of ours. I get the belief of advanced civilization of ‘us’ from the fact that we have been around for about 100 thousand years. Not a lot to some. But that is about 92 thousand years that we have no record of. And for all this time we have had the same brain power that we have now. Not a bigger brain, not a smaller. The same brain. But yet we only come up with writing in the last 8 thousand years.

I think it more likely that humans lived in smaller pockets some for them got real advanced but something come along and removed them. After all it if we just were gone tomorrow it would take 1k for most things that were not plastic and glass to be gone. 50k for most plastic and glass. If there were a few pocket of really smart groups that advanced to almost our level or even to with in 50 years of us. And they got destroyed 50k ago or even 20k it would be hard for us to tell. They would not even be legends. Hell you can find towns all over KS, MS, OK and AR that are just foundations of buildings in the woods. No one knows anything about them or how lived there. If less than 100 years from now there will be nothing of them.

Anyway that aside. I was thinking what if going though the galactic plain did not bring us down but moved us into a new reign in the galaxy. What if of the other side allows us to connect to quantum reality more. Maybe all the legends of magic and supernatural powers come from a time when we were more in touch with magic and the like. Maybe the other side will make Quantum Magic opens up to us? Or something like that. I know. Vary Shadorun. Still.

Well that is all I am going to ramble about tonight.
Thewildword ~d

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Books of the Dead.

I was lessening to Coast 2 Coast today like I almost always do. I just love that show. ET’s, Ghost, Big Foot, “Real” Scientist, Quantum Space and time talk. Government cover-ups and the end of time (2012 just so you know!) is the best for work.

Today they were talked about the Egyptian and Tibet books of the dead. And I got to thinking. Why don’t I have a book of the dead. I could really use one!
(~d book of the dead)
Now that I think about it I could come up with my own end of world Revelations type book to. I tell you I would have more the 4 hours men of ~d’s apocalypse.


.Net C#

Well most of this Post will be about work and the like. But not bad stuff. I really have been enjoying in the last couple weeks. I have been doing lots and lots of .NET. front end and back in of it. And C#.

I have been working a lot with the .NET controls and like most people that have done any front end work I get frustrated at how you can’t get hold of the id’s because .NET changes them. Adds stuff to them. What this has done is made me really get my JS down. Walking the DOM and the like to find the element I want. Ether though looking at Child Nodes or Siblings. My JS and CSS has really jumped forward. And I have really cemented myself as the AJAX person of the company.

At the same time I am really getting .NET down. Master pages and custom controls are now common place for me. C# as a backend language is powerful and smooth. It works with .NET so well. Allowing you to control and change the front side controls and content with ease.

I must admit for the 1st time I feel like a real programmer. I have been doing web work broth front end and middle tear for a long time. But always in JS or ASP on the back end. Now I am really getting in to building web components both server objects and controls. Working with SQL and stored procedures. And My knowledge of JS and AJAX is really helping in building sites in the web 2.0 world.

There is still lots to learn. But I am getting there.

I have a friend ~J who left ~W~St at the same time I did. He went down the Java path and he seems to love it. But I think if he really got into C# and .NET he would like it to. It is just so smooth. And he would not have to be working in a language that will be dead in 6 or 7 years. :~)

Of course saying that, I don’t go though a day when I don’t say to myself what dumass thought of this. But most time that is CSS.

11 working days left before vacation. (well 10 I get Monday off).

~Z has a cold. I fear I might have a little one! Err.

Thewildword ~d.

Sunday, February 11, 2007

Must Rest some time

It has been a wild few days. After not getting much sleep last week I have had a couple good nights of sleep. Still I feel vary tired. But I will try to bring everyone up to speed.

When I say that I have been trying to pull off the imposable at work I am not laying. I have been building a DHTML multi file upload control. As most of you know you can upload a file to a web site using a input control with a type of file. And you can have only upload more then one file if you have more then one input or type file on the page. And you can not style the input control at all.

Well. We have made a control that you can upload more then one file at time with and can style. It is stunning. But it is a challenge. I spent 2 days of my time last week working on it. There is still a little work to do. But when I am done, I will make sure everyone I know, knows about it. Those that are web programmers will be stunned I think.

Other that that. This weekend has been busy. Kung-fu Saturday morning, We got ~Z’s blood taken then come home. Both ~L and I had really bad headaches. For the most part we got over them in time to do Karaoke at the church Saturday night. It was fun.

Today I got to greet at the UU then we went to an Art showing, after that we just drove around a bit. It was nice. Then we ate. I worked out and that is about it. Seems like I did a lot.

We also got are tickets to San Diego. Maybe some time on vacation I will fill rested. HA!


Wednesday, February 7, 2007


So I watched the show 2057 on Discovery the other night. I liked what they came up with. I thought they did a good job of coming up with a nice middle of the road estimate of what live could be like in 50 years. Some of the things I think they were a little too conservative with. Other to far out. But a nice middle of the road guess is about the best we can hope for.

They went into transportation and computer power. It all looked good. But what got me most was the 1st hour of the 3 hour show they talked about medical advances. The ability re-grow body parts and the like. It seemed that by 2057 you could fix just about anything. And from some other stuff I have been reading I can believe that maybe the case.

Were as I really liked this. Everything around the medical advancements really bothers me. It seems that out need to serve humanity did not grow with our ability. Insurance companies still control who gets saved and how does not. And they have the power to drop you from your insurance at any whim and any reason. Even going so far as to monitor you and go through your garbage to find trespasses agents a health live style.

I think for humanity to live up to its greatness we need to make sure that all humanity (that wants it) is severed. If you need a new hart or arm or whatever you can get it. It cost us more as a race to lose one of us that it cost us in cash.
Anyway. That is just my thoughts. I am all about universal health care. And I do think it would be good to have fabric that was monitoring health sighs and could call for help if needed. But I don’t think that info should go to the government or insurance company. No decision about you leave of care should be base on it.
Well that is my thought.

Saturday, February 3, 2007

Things going down

Ok. It seems that as soon as I get a raze to a far about at work. There Seems to be no end of things that are lining up to take that $$.

1st there is the TV. Not the pig one but the small one in the living room. We had kind of planed on getting a new TV anyway. But the TV has a filter going out or something. The top 8th of the screen has white lines running though it. Anything near the top kind of loops around and starts going down. So we need a new TV.

2nd ~L computer. It seems to have gone down. It was having a problem where is would just stop seeing ½ the memory. So I took the memory out and put it back in to see if I could get it to work better. Now it dose not work at all. I hit the power button the green light comes on then it sounds like power is going though the system but it dose not fire up the hard drive. Nothing comes on the screen and after about 3 seconds the green light goes off. ~L needs a computer. So we need a new computer.

Well I am guessing that is about the only 2 things for now lining up to take our $$. Still that is more than I wish. We still need to get ticks for CA. will have to wait till Friday when I get paid. But we well get them.

I guess I am just a little upset because this just pushes back things I want and want to do. But I guess this happens. Maybe by the end of summer things will be better. But I am guessing not. There will be car stuff that comes up this summer. going to have to get it registered here in WA and that will cost over $100. need to get us all passports about $300 there.

Sorry to be such a downer.

Anyway. Maybe I will hit the button and the computer will just come up tomorrow.

On the up side ~Z is sleeping in a bed not a crib now. And she has started to use the potty. Not bad for someone who is not even 2 yet!



Thursday, February 1, 2007

Kung fu. Seattle Kung-fu

So a friend of mind started a Kung fu school out here is Seattle a few months ago. It is a good School and she is a good Teacher. Vary Good. The problem is getting the word out. I have done her web site. http://www.shaolinseattle.com/. but even after several months of being up the page dose not show up on Google or other search pages. I know one of the was to get the word out is to have links to it. So if you can please but links up on your page, blogs or wherever you can.

The School is vary good. ~Sarah is a good teacher. I really want her to succeeded. I feel bad because I have a hard time getting over there to class. I is just on the other side of the lake from me. I so wish I could do more.


Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Good Omens.

I have finished the book. It is vary good but not as good as some by Neil Gaiman. I have not read anything else form Terry Pratchett so I don’t know if this is normal for hem. Still the book was good. Vary good. And as I expected it got me in the mood for In Nomine . But I don’t think that is going to happen. On the up side it dose look like I might get a gaming group together soon. I have people that would like to play. Now just need to find time for it. It is good to be making friends.

There was a couple things in the book that I thought was interesting. One at the end on of the main charters said that he thought when the end came it would be humans agents Heaven and Hell. I thought that would make an interesting story. Something happens at sometime in the future to open the war here on earth and to even the playing filed a little between the divine, the dammed and the humans. Just and idea.

They other is dose Heaven and Hell even care about us. (of course I don’t believe in heaven and hell) or do they care more about winning?

Ok. Now I am going to watch “Medium” there are talking dolls. Cool. And a little odd.

In other news. We only have about 4 weeks now till the San Diego trip. It is going to be so fun. Going to see my brother and mom and dad. ~Z is going to have a blast. I need to find a way one night to get ~L, ~Z and myself up to see my friends that live north of SD.

Well that is it for now.

Monday, January 29, 2007

~Z 1st kiss!

When I got home today My child came running out to see me. As always I picked her up and give her a big hug and a big kiss.

She as always gave me back a hug but for the 1st time she gave me a puckered up and gave me a big kiss. It was ~Z 1st kiss. I got ~Z 1st kiss.

It made me so happy!

A little later she was asking for chocolate! I got her some but I told her I need a kiss 1st. She gave me one. I got such a kick out of that to.

I just love her.

Saturday, January 27, 2007

A time to Blog (work and more)

Ok 1st Work. Well I had a couple interviews this week they were good and one I would have loved to have had. Would have been near the perfect job. Almost hurts that I did not get it. I am sure that if I wanted I would have a new job next week. But my work came back and offered me enough that I have decided to stay. Sure there are problems. But what job dose not have them and now I feel like they are willing to pay me for dealing with them. So I will stay. And I will enjoy it. I work with good people. They know what they are doing.

Working out has been going well. I think I might be loosing wait. It feels like I should be anyway. But The scale at the gym when I when it the 1st time said I was 237 the other day (3rd time I went) it said 227. Now ~L thinks the scales were off when I went in the 1st time but I tent to believe the numbers. Numbers do not lie. So I think I have lots 10 pounds! YAY.

The UU Church. It is still good. We are having fun there. And the writing group is going to start next month.

Getting out. We went to Discovery park today. It was nice. A little cold but not to bad when we got moving. It is a good park. I will blog about it soon and post pics.


Thursday, January 25, 2007

Update on work.

I have been looking for new work. As most of you know. And I have been complaining a lot about my job lately. I would like to take this time to say there is lots I do like about work. There are good people there and there is lots to learn. I would love for them to try to keep me. But end then end though I am interviewing for jobs that are 75k + or more a year. How can I say that I am doing what is best for me and my family if I am not making that much.

So that being said. I am looking. I have heard from someone I trust that my current job it going to try to keep me. But we will see. I also don’t want to be a ass. I want to make sure I get done what is needed for my current job. I do not wish to put anyone in a bad place.

Well that is it for now.
I am sorry if I bitch to much. But that is kind of what blogs are for.
Thewildword ~

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Gym 2nd try

We found another gym we have decided to try. It is not so close but it is less that 10 minutes drive. And ~L and I really want some place to work out. They did not give us the hard sale and the price is not bad. There is a January sale so if we sigh up before the end of this month it will be a good price. And we did get a free trial, no questions, We just walked in and we where shown around then given the pass. They have a good cardio room, weights, pool, racket ball court and a big open area that they teach classes in. And when there are no classes, I can work out (do forms and the like) in there. There is also a stream room and hot tub. So far I like it.

Today I did my 1st workout. I took my weight to start. 236!!! Errr. What I want is 180! That is what I was at 3 years ago when I was doing kung-fu every night. That is what I think I should be. I think I have almost 50 pounds of fat. Not happy about that. So ok here is my plan.

Do kung-fu when I can. At lest once a week. Going to try to start going twice.
But each day that I do not.
15 minutes of cardio. Get hart moving.
15 minutes of weights.
Depending of if the space is available.
2 to 3 forms.
15 minutes of cardio.
10 minutes of Steam room.

I will keep you informed on how it is going.

There is only 2 down falls to this place.
One there is a Dairy Quean right next door.
And just a couple doors down it a place that teaches some form of Marshals Arts. Don’t know what kind. It is just called “Marshals Arts”. No type. I don’t know why this bothers me. But it dose.


Saturday, January 20, 2007

Universal Unitarian

Ok. So ~L and I have been going to the Universal Unitarian the last few weeks. Ok 2, 3 for ~L as she went one week with out me. I must admit that I was vary worried about going. I did not have what I would think of as the best experience in church going up.

Sure I had a good time with the other kids and there was a lot of me that enjoyed the history, stories and there is a lot to learn for the hole Christ thing. I even thought about being a preacher when I was a kid. But as I got older I felt that there was just to much judgment in it and to much just counter to common sense.

Do I believe in a hire power. Yes! God? In general. Yes. I tend to think that God is “US” as a hole. You, me, the dog, the cats, the earth, the stars. That we are all part of God. I believe God is beauty, love and even destruction and hate. He/She is the sum of it all. Do I think God has a consciousness. Yes. But I believe that Consciousness reveals its self to each person differently. End the end God lives in the hart after all. And no two people have the same hart. There fore no two people can have the same god. I also believe in the Big Bang (something that is stunning when you think about it. Once together always together. Something that tell you how connected we all are. Something that is part Quantum theory. You know science) I also believe in Evolution (I think people that don’t believe in evolution based on that there is not just enough time just don’t quite grasp how much time is involved! End the end I can’t grasp that much time no one can. But what I can grasp is that the earth has been around so long and it has had more than enough time to not only come up with millions and millions of living things. It would be harder to believe that it would not come up with at lets sentient species at some point). I believe in reincarnation. It just makes sense. Tell me were in nature that you just see something stop!. You don’t, stuff my die and come back as something else. But it dose not stop. And sense I believe in a sole (why. Because I want to!) . I must believe it follows the same rules.

Anyway. Like I was saying the religion I grew up in seemed to have a big problem with common sense. Preaching love. But the last time I was in that church it was an hour of talking about how bad Gays were and lots of hate coming out of the preachers moth. They clam that the Catholics are so wrong about everything but they follow a bible that was for the most part put together for them by the Catholics. The Pope is the one that took out Reincarnation, because it gave the people to much power. And were in the bible is Mary a prostitute! No were. There is even a book that was written by her. But it gave women to much power. So it was gong. And the hole end of the world thing. And Hell, Hell was put in for one reason, to scare people. And Scare people is what the church is best at. Scare people and condemn them. You are with god or the Devil. I just don’t want to be apart of the much judgment. And not part of that something black and white. That is just not the way God is.

So it took me a lot to get in the door of the UU Church. Any church. But I did.

There are several good reason for going. No the lest of witch is that it is a good place to make friends and for ~Z to get to play with other little kids. ~Z loves it. She points out the church every time we go by. ~L and I love it to. In the 3 weeks we have been going we have meet more people that we have the hole of the rest of the time we have been here. ~L is going to an art class they have and there might me a Writhing group starting that I think I might enjoy.

All that said. It is so far a vary good thing. Still someone said something to me that did bring something up that I was worried about as much as I worried about going to someplace that reminded me of the judgmental church of my youth. It was the one size fits all concept. The trying to be a student of everything and there for a master of nothing. Knowing just enough to talking about something but not enough to teach. And there for having nothing to really teach.

But I must tell you I have not found that. It was just what I was looking for. Sure there is still some reading form the bible. But it is the parts that talks about Gods love, and the value of knowledge. There is also lots of nodes to the Goddess powers out there and even pocket Atheists. (people that don’t so much believe in God but believe in community!) It is not so much that they try to preach any of thing. Lest of all Gods will. Instead that work at showing people how to find a way to talk to God themselves. To find a way to see the beauty around them and to realize that the beauty and themselves are part of something greater. It is as good thing. They also actively engage in conversations about all believes and thoughts, to better understand and learn there own believes.

And I know that people are going to say that we are picking and choosing what part of the bible we are using and that should not be done. But in the end I have not seen one religion that dose not do that with the Bible. Hell the one I grew up in added to it with there own profit. I would also like to point out that if your really wanted to know what the bible says you need to learn the language that it was written in and read it for yourself. If not. You are not believing what the bible says. Your are believing what someone else think the bible says.

Well that is about all I have to say for now. There is lost more to say. But you know.. time… We are vary happy with the UU Church. It reminds me of the things I enjoy about Church and the community it gave and non of the End of world by the 4 hoarse man of the Apocalypse and hell, fire and hate.

And sometime I am going to go into how odd I think it is for a religion to have a primary adversary as the Light Bringer and that the down fall of my from paradise was knowledge (as in the tree of). Is that not saying that Ignorance is Paradise? And to gain knowledge is to loss paradise. And is not Knowledge and Light equivalent in some ways?

Anyway UU good so far. Only gone 3 weeks after all.

O well. More on that later.


Friday, January 19, 2007

Thought it was a good idea.

Ok. Sense I have been here in Seattle I have not been able to get to Kung-fu as much as I would like. Let’s face it. To get to class on the weekdays I would ether, 1 have to take the bus home for an hour, kiss my wife and child, get in a car drive for :40 to an hour. Then maybe get an hour of class before I need to leave if I want to get home before my child goes to bed and my dog need a walk. Or 2. Take the bus form work over to class. Get 2 hours of class before I head home on the bus for 1 hour at least (have to changes buses)
Neither is very good if I want to spend any time with my family that day. And ~L has to dill with ~Z for 10 hours a day anyway. She is a good child. But she is a 2 years old (Like herding cats that have thrums and can tell you they don’t want to be herded by setting and screaming there heads off. Between being cute and loving.) It is hard for me to add at least 3 more hours on to that for ~L even once a week.
Well anyway. We ~L and me thought we would try the gym next to us. Just to make up for the exercise we don’t get being out here, because it is so dark at night and lately cold. We had a 10 day free pass thing that we thought would be good for a try. Hell we were even ready to just join. After all, they are open 24hr a day so I could go after ~Z went to sleep. And they have day care. So ~L could take ~Z over and let her play with other kids while she worked out.
Needless to say. The whole thing was crap. The person we meet at 8:30 spent an hour telling us hour great the gym was (and it did look great. But you don’t spend an hour telling people that are hulling a kid around every little thing. They are ready to see the place quickly and then sigh up or not) , then we got the pitch.
If we signed up for the 2 of us right then! Our 1st time in. it would only cost us only $230 (1st and last month’s fees, $90 membership start up cost and $39 each registration fee and stuff.) Ug…. If we waited though and did the 10 day free trial (which did not let you come in after 9 at night) it would cost almost $450. And it was a hard sell. We walked out! What a pain in the But. What a waste of time.
People can say all they want about kung-fu. But you don’t get the hard sell, you get to know all the cost up front, and the price is way cheaper than just about anything else out there. Sure they get your money is weapons and special class and festivals. But it is not like that stuff is hidden.
I just need a way to get there more. I was excited to see that the gym had a big open area that was not used at night. I thought I could use it to practice in. but no!
2 of the many things I miss about Boulder. Close to Kung-Fu. Have community Centers you could work out in.
Still I love being out here.
Just wish getting to a place to work out was easers. Just doing it at home has never worked for me. I need to go somewhere and set aside time for it.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

I have so much to blog about.

But I am having a hard time thinking. So I will tell you that I am reading Good Omens by Terry Pratchett by Neil Gaiman right now. Gaiman being one of my top 5 anthers. I am liking it. It is a little hard to read. It is vary British. That is about the best way to describe it. Flows of thought don't mesh well with mine sometimes. Kind of like watching BBC show and the people do something or say something and you’re like what. That makes no sense. That is not how we would do or say or react to that in America. It is not that what they are doing is wrong. Just deferent.
It is all good though. The story is good. It has the Antichrist in it as a kid and the 4 horsemen of the Apocalypse in it as well. All good things. But I was thinking if there are 4 housemen of the Apocalypse then should there also not be 4 housemen of the un-Apocalypse as well. Something to counter them. O well something to think about.
Anyway back to the book. I like it. So far. I liked Neverwhere and American Gods better. American Gods being easier to read, Neverwhere being a better book.
Well that is my blog for now.

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Ok. Well here is the big day

By birthday. Not that exciting all in all. I got a cumpas from L and Zoe. L taught Zoe my age. Ask Z how old is Daddy. “Daddy Old!” Nice.

Besides that I did Tie-Che today. That was good. I really needed it. More so after this last week. I could not even begin to start to tell you how the week was going. Still looking for a new job. Part of me would like were I am to make me a good offer and I could stay there. I would like to stay some place for a while. And I like my boss a lot. And the people I work with. But…. And part of me would like to get a job on this side of the lake.
I just want more $$. I don’t wont to worry about $$ anymore. And I want to be able to get stuff and do stuff with out worring about $$.

Go on trips.
Get a iPod Shuffle.
Get a xbox 360.
Get a Baby sitter so L and I can go out.
Stuff like that. I know stuff is silly. But still.

We are going out to eat later. That will be nice. I am looking forward to it. I am going to get a good stake. Hard to get. But I do want a good Stake.

In other news. At UU there is a weighting group starting. I may look into that. It would be fun and I have my orienteering class this week. I hope no one bugs that day and I can go. I get to work tomorrow. Should be a day off. But I get to work.


Thursday, January 11, 2007

I need help!

I am so ticked. Ticked to the core of my being.

You see at work 4 or more months ago a project started being talked about at the company. I was in on the talks and plans about it at the start. I helped with the timelines and technology expectations. Then all of a sudden I was taken out of it. Not in the meetings. Not giving my opinions. The only opinion I could give was that we were going to end up with this project having time and deadline problems because there was not a plan for the project from the dev side. But I said this a couple times and people said it was noted and that was that.

And now here we are. I was given the OK to start working on it 6 weeks ago. One of the weeks we could not work on it because of having a week off. Witch I loved. We had a date for code complete of jan 15. and css complete. CSS complete being DOBs across 5 browsers. The 1st week and more we could not work because at that time we were arguing about what technology to use, well I was not but the MP and my manager were. The stuff that I was talking about at the start of the project.

Anyway after all this what was decided that we will have the site ready for QA on 2-1 for all 5 browsers. And on 1-15 we decided 4 pages done in IE 6 and 7.

Today at the start of the day we learn that it is like they want to look at most of the site on the 15th. Some one told the customer it would be ready by then. A PM. So they want me to work this weekend. Doing mostly css. And this weekend I am mostly putting in content!

I should not be putting in content. I am a programmer. I should not be just doing css. I am a programmer. I should be doing AJAX, building tools. Doing .net! doing C#!

F#@k this. I am pissed! I get paid to much for doing content and not enough for this crap! I am a programmer!

I could have made this so much easer if I would have just been in the process from the start and stayed in it!!!

I am so mad!
Dame it!

I don’t mind working late. Or overtime sometimes. But I do hate when I have to because people are not letting me do my job!

Thewildword ~d

Wednesday, January 10, 2007


Snow. lots and lots of snow. all comming down in about 5 minits.

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Tuesday, January 9, 2007

The “New 30”.

As most of you know or you do now, I am about to turn 37! And somewhere in the middle of that age I will pass the point were I am closer to 40 than to 35. And lets just face it. If I am that close to 40 I might as just well be 40!

And that kind of bothers me. Most ages don’t bother me. But 40 kind of dose for some reason. It is ½ of 80 after all, and 80 is about ½ of my life. Also I have done none of the things I have wished for by 40! Take over Europe, Dye my brothers hair blue, see KC win a super bowl, get an x-box 360, Make my own religion, see a total eclipse!

To sum up. Have not done enough by 40!

But coming home on the bus today I overheard someone talking and it seemed they were coming up on 30. and with a laugh she pointed out to some one on the other end of her phone, that 30 is the “new 20”. and as I often believe things I overhear on the bus spoken by a lowed blond talking of the phone. I knew she was right.

So flowing this logic I now see that 40 is the “new 30”. So I am not on my way to 40. I am on my way to the “new 30”. It now seems like I have lots of time to do things I want to do. I am younger that I thought I was in this new way of thinking. I can set on the couch now and not worry about my goals, because I have lots of time to do them! And life is good again.

I did relies though that this “new 30” thing cant be fore everyone and after doing some research I have found there is a cut off date were if you were born before you don’t get to be the “new 30”, you just hit 40 (the “OLD 40” or what old people would think of as 40.)

And not surprising because I am at the cutting edge of these cool new things. I am at the leading edge of were you can go by the “new” version of your age.

So this is the way it is. If you were born in 1970 or after you get to take 10 years off you age after you turn 30 and call yourself “the new XXX”. So for me I will be the “new 27!”

If you were born before 1970 (and you know who you are!) you would just have to say you were 37, thus almost 40. and you might as well say you are 40 then righ!

And that is the wisdom I got on the bus today!

thewildword ~d

Sunday, January 7, 2007

Why Good Books suck.

Because they suck up your life. I hade a few things I wanted to do this weekend. Did I get them done? No! Why? Because I spend all weekend reading a book. Not don’t with it. Need to get back to it. Will till you the name and more about it when I am done.

So the rest of this will be quick.

Friday. Did not play Magic the gather. Zoe did not sleep all day and ~L was about to lose it. So I happily stayed home with Zoe (and Read!) and let her get out by herself.

Saturday. Kung-Fu Good! Iron bone and Punching Kicking class. Came home Read! Watched KC lose badly in the playoffs. Went out on a drive to get Zoe to sleep! Eat got some Magic cards! Came home. Read!

Sunday. Went to the Universal Unitarian Service. It was about the “New Atheism” something I will blog about more later. 3rd time going. Really liking it! Came home. Read!

Gong to go Read more now!

O I am also going to ask for more $$ tomorrow at work. If I don’t get it. I am going to get a deferent job. Even though I like the people I work with. I need and want the $$ more.

Thewildword ~d

O and people that I know that write. Will you hurry up and get some things done I can read! It is cheaper that way! And you can read, or try to read my stuff anytime you like.

Friday, January 5, 2007

Things I would rather be doing now. (short list!)

Looking for Bigfoot.
Looking for UFO’s
Looking for Ghosts.
Looking for the fairies (and you know what I mean!)
Looking into Earth Mysteries.
All would be cooler that what I am doing!

thewildword ~d

Thursday, January 4, 2007

The Democrats are in!

So here we go. I have mixed emotions about this. In then end I worry it will not make much deference. End the end the people that we have in charge of the Democrats are the some old people that have been in charge of the Democrats. Not the new younger Democrats. So I don’t know if they are really going to be able to do anything.

I just don’t think that the old Democrats or anyone that has been in politics for more than a 5 or 6 years can represent the people. The are not part of the people anymore. To easy it seems to believe there causes are the peoples causes.

And as long as we have a system that allows people to stay in power and gives them more power (seniority) the longer they are in there. And those people have the power to decided or help to decided who gets $$ for running for seats in the party. We will not get real change.

And we need change.

Not the kind of changes that rising taxes or emigration reform will do. (and we do need both.)

What we need to change is how people can buy laws. Buy who gets investigated. Buy power. Buy who gets government contracts and can get away with braking the law.

I am under a firm believe now that the government had misused our trust. And because they have nothing that they do or fund, even the military, can be kept secret. There is nothing that the government dose that should be above the publics scrutiny. There should be NO presidential privilege. At least not till we find time again when we can trust the government again.

At one point we may have had a government we could trust. But when we started letting the government keep such secrets on the ‘need’ for national security and the like. We started letting the government get out of our control.

Tell me what could there be that our government could hide from us for our own good?

I can see military actions.

But what would be wrong with us knowing what weapons we had? They are our weapons after all. We pay for them! What is wrong with other knowing how powerful we are, if we are? And if others know we can kick there but with out loosing a man then I think it is less likely they will come after us. Sure they might try to get weapons or defiance items to counter ours. Well that is just a good reason for us to keep trying! Keep pushing for more.

What dills could our government be making with power companies that the people should not know about or agreements with other countries that should not be none to all. After all it is not them that are making the agreements. It is us. The people. If they are doing things on our behave. Then we should have the right to know about it.

The only reason to keep it from us is to keep themselves in power. Knowledge is power after all. The other reason of course is they know the people would not approve of how the $$ is being spend. Sure the government has to do things that are not popular. But they don’t have the right to do it in the dark. They get paid will to be the hang man. We should be wise enough to know that is what we are paying them for.

Well that is all I have to say now. I hope things are good with the Dems in.

Thewildword ~d

Wednesday, January 3, 2007

If I was to run a game.

What would it be?
I have maybe 2 players. Friends. L is out because so much Z takes so much time that any free time is valued. I so know that feeling. She is a good value. But she is a time vacuumed!

So I may have 2 players and with some luck maybe 1 or to more will show up! Like magic! I hope.

But what game!

Wight Wolf: Mage.
I have done this a lot. I like Mage a cross between 1-3rd addition. But I am not at this point having any inspiration for the game. I am sure I can come up with it soon. I am good at that for Mage.

Wight Wolf: Where Wolf.
I have only did this once. But I have played it lots and I enjoyed it. I have a couple ideas for this. But it is not my best at running.

Wight Wolf: Vampire.
Well. What can I say. I have a idea!!! O ya. Idea!

Cyberpunk 2020.
I am rally in the mood to play this. I have a couple ideas for running and it is an easy system to run!

D&D. 2nd.
Easy to run. Like above. But not lots of ideas. But easy to get ideas for.

In Nomine: ????
Have ran it. Love it. Have Idea. Good ideas! But it is a game you run with people you have ran with for a while. You can not play the game and enjoy it with out testing your self and your morals. (kind of!)

My own system.
It is a system kind of base on Charles De'lint / Gaiman worlds. You have kind on innate powers your can use magic. But true magic take a log time. And lots of will.
I do have dies for this as well though. Good ideas.

Well. What should I do?

Need more info?

I don’t know. But with luck we will find out!
thewildword ~d

HALO 3 and Wars

I need. O I need so bad!
Must have xBox 360




Tuesday, January 2, 2007

Stupid work.

1st day back.
It took till 11 for me to get all the changes on my system that was made over last week in India.

It also seems that for some reason we have to include all the .css files that are in the css folder on all pages. but that is just stupid! What if I want css on one page that I don’t want on a deferent one. But India set it up that way. Also they were complaining that some of the js dose not work. Well it would help if you include the .js file.

End then end I did not get much done today. A little but most of it was spend trying to fix things that was working a week ago.

8 working days till launch. I see working on my birthday!
Even then. I don’t see getting this done!

This project just was not thought out. And we have to many people in charge in to many places.

Errrrrr not a good way to start a new work year!
thewildword ~d

Magic: The Gathering

Ok. I hate myself for this but.
I got some more Magic: The Gathering cards this week.
I am desperate for a game I tell you. And I know this is not real gaming but I need something. Anything! And maybe this will be a way to meet other gamers.
At one of the local gaming stores they have a MTG game every Friday.
It can’t hurt much to try right! RIGHT?
I also did put up a note looking for Gaming there. White wolf 1, 2 or 3rd. Cyberpunk or In Nomine.
Or even D&D!
In Kirkland or on the east side of Seattle.
O the pain